Redemption Groups - Week Three: Peace

This was a tough week, one where the group leaders honed their skills in confrontation, and in God’s sovereignty I was the source of inconsistency they confronted. They asked what picture of redemption I had painted, in other words, what do I expect from God.  I was only able answer that question after what seemed like light years of inescapable, deliberate, loving interrogation.I expect peace from God. After all John 14:27 says he gives it. That is my idea of redemption, peace. But often that is not my reality, and I find myself petitioning God for more peace, asking for another hit. I habitually wonder what I need to do to get back on my spiritual high, and I get mad at myself for not being able obtain it. After all Jesus said he has already given peace, it must be me who cannot grab hold. I had been approaching the Almighty Creator like a gumball machine for my emotional sweet tooth.  That in turn, led me (long after my whole group noticed) to what a high view of myself I have and what a disgraceful view of Jesus I have.This was a tough week, but Lord knows I needed it.Ultimately, the purpose of this blog is to bring glory to the God for the good work He is/will be doing in me and others (Psalm 107).  This blog will do that by broadly sharing my thoughts and feelings about the entire process each week, with no identifying information about others or myself.  The hope is that it will help inform others of what to expect and calm their nerves about actually going through redemption groups themselves.For more information on Redemption Groups go here.